Keystyle Cypher!

So is the Messiah, so many messiah's passing through...
Christian beliefs marred by the same beliefs of the Catholic roots...
I wake up to the hums of the chapel hues...
Realize I face damnation, no matter which path I choose...
Brain warped, like Triple H vs Curtis Axel...
The inferno, on top of the burning castle...
Burn through the same currency when you earn a cashflow... become hedonistic...
Chase money 'cause it begets an equity balance, to be specific.
Flowed 'till I drowned myself in my sorrows, to be Pacific...
Misery loves company - tell that bitch she can keep her distance...
Hated myself - took a long time to fall in love wit' my flaws....
I get external validation from the applause
I went for it much like a nomad, seeking their path through a fog of smoke...
Couldn't see through the vision, 'till it was thick enough to clog my throat...
See the Vision like Maximoff... Agnostic beliefs, while rocking a catholic cross.
The cup runneth over, into my afterthoughts...
Stomach turns, hearing the ping off of my ex's Apple watch
She told me she'd do it, but didn't when I had her pass, unlocked...
I guess that's what loyalty is... when you destroy them n' they stick to you, still..
To let you know this is for real... to let you know this is until...
You ROTTING, inside of your grave...
You didn't show up when she needed, so you try to be brave...
She was loyal to you, but somewhere along the lines your alliances, swayed...
Going back and forth, fighting for days...
Like UFC guys, inside of a cage.
It's a cruel world... it's almost like you made it to be...
I'm stuck inside a matrix, 'need to find me a way to be free...
Don't believe the hype... see how I'm breathing life in whatever I read and write
Heavy toll got me feeling light...
Dealt with vitriol, so how could you expect me to be polite?
Especially when I perceive your slight's directed at me, despite...
Not being deserving of it?
Hate's an ugly word, yet I'm still learning from it.
Knowing somebody's out there, preserving judgement.
Besides, I don't believe what I say is winning any beauty pageants...
You do whatever you do to grab it...
Persistent shock value, constantly moving you, to the static...
Saw her sob, uncontrollably.
So, I consoled her n' I told her to breathe.
For only a moment, of peace.
Holding her briefly close, a tear rolls to her cheek.
Hear her as she's going to speak... slowly, but each...
syllable becomes an emotional screech...
I'm suppose to be this emotional boulder she needs...
to hold her, but geez... I feel broken, to pieces.
She rests on my shoulder n' leaves it soaking
as I roll up my sleeves, holding this Kleenex.
"I know that you need this"...
My voice cracks, in a moment of weakness.
Snatch victory from the hold of defeat, which...
Is the momentum this emotional rollercoaster proceeds with
Aware of what I did, but if I say it, it becomes real.
Numb of the affect it had on me, n' I'm numb, still.
Leave a hole inside of my soul, the size of a tambourine.
So, I escape to a dream world, where my reality can't be seen...
Brain fried from turmoil n' grief...
Trip the timeline, go back to when I enjoyed my peace.
Remember how eating habits destroyed my sleep
Wake up coughing, with a burning inside of my throat...
Tired, feeling so fired up that I can just blow
And take the world with me. Guess I will, when it's my time to go
Doubt I'll regret it if it happened. I won't show...
a lick of empathy. Sometimes I'm so desensitized by it all it hits me, mentally.
But then I remember that, it, eventually...
Subsides... I go down a Spiral that'd make 'Rock, blush.
Until I get a whiff of energy, to lift the seven seas...
Willpower is a worthy revelation...
A testament far greater than its journey's destination.

https://youtu.be/shHSPx7dJK4?si=mVOjdpVhQISploAr

Far greater than its journey's destination...

That place? I have reservations
Because I think universal instead of self preservation
One day I'll be offered wealth by satan
All I gotta do is obey him, cause mayhem
Deal with it, Ray Ban's
No need to sign a contract, just shake hands
Thanks but no thanks, I take the stance
To not give in to temptation if I want to advance
And allow my spirituality to enhance
Pay close attention to what your heart mentions
Because that feeling is your souls extension
While your mind is designed to be blind comprehension
Constantly influenced by the devils henchmen
There's levels to this, Ascension, Dimensions
All of this was presented by the ancients
The knowledge was stolen, what was once beholden is considered pagan
Anything of African origin to put it in laymens
At the end of whitewashed prayers you say amen
But listen to what they saying, they always say Ah-men
Words, not how its spelled but how its heard
Amun Ra, head of a bird
King of Gods, creator of the universe
Now who the 1st? So why is there a second?
Why is king James what we reppin?
What's being a roman catholic gotta do with spiritual progression?
Align your soul and mind to manifest what is destined
Lizard-Brain vs what your Soul's saying
Now that's a lesson!!!
You can be "a bull" but what precedes is "Question"
The things that fly over the heads of peasants is present
My presence makes residents speak with impediments
They need sedatives in regiments cuz my precedence is evident
Effortless with evidence to master the elements
Wise, Intelligent, despised by eyes who are a shell of this
You can feel it in the air like rising Celsius

- iLL

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ij38rA2Szlo
Rising Celsius...
Deciding on being righteous or the wealthiest
The first choice might be the healthiest
Then an inner voice says Yo, that's selfish
You got a family to feed and you need help QUICK!
This is how niggaz get, caught up in the mix
Shit, can go left, you get to know death
When you run in these streets with no refs
Filled with adolescent mind states hoping to get noticed
Then put into the ground like locust
Bound to lose focus, most of these clowns are hopeless
I choose to cope with French lotus
The stench potent
Off the curb I've served more than French opens
French kissing when I'm twisting dope, smoking
Toking, ooh la la is a quote given
I could be the Joker, Living La Vida Loca
My swag becomes a fad
That fad will lead to soldiers
Now they mad that we the culture
And all of that is a lie
The culture is created by the bluest eye
Let you decide...

Spoiler:

https://youtu.be/lGNRQcnQFyo?si=IfNQ59UBApEOdIwO

They got you tap dancing telling you to slide
Cuz they don't like black bitches
Oh foolish pride
Right fist to the sky
OG's know me as a Kat Daddy that's Supafly
Cuz I make statements
Like
Don't be fuckin with my tape deck
Aight?
Or we can fight, Harlem nights
The time is right, The wine is right, I'll treat ya right
Talk shit, I am experienced so I'll move with caution
I've dealt with this too often
As a boss man I don't need to do too much talking
I lead by how I walk it
I believe you're out of pocket
Now proceed to pop it, topless in the cockpit
My lizard brain is toxic
But its better than fighting, an exciting way to change the topic...

- iLL

& if they don't respect my Profits? *Click* POW!* the Glock Kicks
Shit, I cant do this; pay Shooters, cause Bitch I got kids!
Spend a couple bucks, they shoot'em up Like Rockets
Its Shocking,
Dropp'em straight Through the touch.... like Sockets..
Thats Mobb Tips,
I dont even drop bombs.. I Lobb Hits
Toss a lil Skrilla to killas, Drill ya with Long Clips
Yea, I know thats all sin...
...Thats why I pray about it...
& just in case I throw some Quarters in my Favorite Fountains..
Need all the Blessings & Luck That you can get..
Its a Hard life & Lessons get Tougher back through the Test
We keep it calm, Surviving Losses & Bombs like Bucharest
WE Be the starship Troopers, Fetch the Boss & Nuke the rest...

.. i say
.. i'd rather rhyme obscurities than waste time like fishin' for base lines
.. though it's contradictory to the thoughts i've mentioned so don't off me instantly
for I made it a core scrimmage within.. have patience, i'm torn-trippin
for we all gods angels and if satan's the mortician
how can hate live if we all created in your image
...
.. deep is the perspective, as stated-throw a peace in my direction
not the heat to intercept shit, but the two fingers of acceptance
.. pause i guess maybe.. these thoughts progress crazy
as technology may seem for we cannot supress changing
.. yo, imagine a child growing up with this shit, stuck with this shit
with an attitude like mine like who gives a fuck about shit
privileged I guess.. still working 40 pissed and stressed drenched in my sweat
though this ventilago shows by least Dominican flesh
.. for i'm finna fade dudes, that white-boy shit generate feuds
no purity.. shit, two hundred years ago i'd of been a slave too
collegiate level of knowledge-please hit up your historical reads
for what's been normalized continually stays horrifying
and that's it..